Please don't ever feel like a freak. We are not freaks. Many people thought some of the greatest people in the past were freaks, Albert Einstein, The Beatles, Picasso, Ghandi,So many more. People just shun what is not known. You are far from a freak. And you know what if it were not for us "Freaks" where would the world be. As the Great John Lennon said "I will never change the way i feel or change who i am for no one. I am a Freak and i love it." What you have is a special gift and you are lucky to have it.