ZB!!!!
I love ya girl! Now here is what I am going tell you about things going to shit (and just when things get good it *will* go to shit)...
I have designed my life to live as minimally as possible. A lot of why people feel hopeless has to do with material possessions, lack of or fear of losing them. We rely so heavily on our wants that we get lost on our needs. You can fit everything you need in a box and a duffle bag and all of it can fit in a car.
Look in the mirror ZB. You are strong and beautiful. You are a woman and a survivor and against all odds you are still here. You are mentally capable of overcoming anything because NOTHING and NOBODY can tear you down. I believe in you. We believe in you and now it's time to believe in yourself. Take no prisoners. Prepare your life for the worst and enjoy the best and live fully...
HUGS and more HUGS!
Disclaimer:
I said that as support for a fellow poster in a forum that isn't necessarily used to help people who feel emotionally distraught but we live in a world of panic, sadness and uncertainty and if I can I will help anyone, anytime, anywhere.