It's been a long night of being unsettled...despite the fact that I have a track of music that I listen to for when I am meditating, trying to rest or for when I go to sleep - it's a mixture of Native American Wood Flute, Shakuhachi (Japanese flute), and Zen related pieces. All in all, I have it in stages so as to promote proper transitions between stages of sleep.
From time to time I travel at night going places that I've never seen before - sometimes bumping into someone else's life who is in a form of distress -- consciously or subconsciously.
Tonight was one of those nights, that as soon as I returned, the state of alarm was so great that I needed to reach out to this woman. It took a while for me to go back to sleep after this occurred, but now at just before 6 am, I am still obviously upset about this. Today will be a healing day spiritually.
It is one of those instances where frustrations can set in because it's like finding the needle in the haystack when it comes to relaying information that you have for someone and you have no clue of who they are or where they are in location. So you turn to the modern day contraptions of the Internet to help spread the outreach. And even then, the hopes of someone knowing this person or the person themselves seeing a message is a gamble of sorts.
It is at times like this where having a gift or an ability feels more like a beast of burden; like you are spiritually gagged and handcuffed. An unsuccessful mission.