Hello all, new to the site. I have to say, I can't really think of an experience I've had with spirits...but considering the MANY experiences I've had with claircognizence and empathic significance, I think I probably have had communication but dismissed it. How's that for the ultimate contradiction? I feel I am an empath, but I'm also a skeptic.
Some of the empathic experiences I've had are pretty difficult to dismiss as simple coincidence, however. For example, when I was 5 years old, I was camping with my family as well as several families of my dad's coworkers at a lake named Lake Six (clever, no?) and since the lake had a steep drop-off, the adults didn't want the kids swimming there. Instead, they loaded two vehicles with all of us kidlets and ported us off to the public access of another lake, Eagle Lake, which was roughly five miles away from the campground. When it came time to leave, no one did a head count and I was left behind at Eagle Lake. Despite never having been at Eagle Lake prior to this, I managed to walk the 5 miles of gravel roads back - in the dwindling daylight - to our campsite without getting lost...pretty good for a hysterical, lost 5 year old girl. Somehow, I just KNEW where to go.
I've since discovered that I also just somehow know when someone close to me, or someone close to a friend, passes. In each case, I am overcome with intense sadness and longing, and only discover later that someone has died. The first time, it hit me while at work. It was the kind of sadness that makes you want to curl up in a corner and sob. I had no idea why I felt so horrible, but when I got home from work, my sons came running out of the house to tell me about their classmate who had collapsed and died in gym class that morning - approximately the same time the emotions took me over. Two days later, while reading that boy's obituary, I discovered he was my relative. Justin's grandfather is my mother's first cousin. Our families had grown apart due to infighting and I'd never met Justin.
Another time, the emotions again overwhelmed me, and the next day I learned a young man I had been friends with as a young child had committed suicide by shotgun in a local hotel. Another time (and by then I'd learned to pay heed to those emotions), my sons were both out late with friends when again I was overwhelmed with panic and grief. Of course, I began texting and calling my sons, ticking them both off with my pestering, but both were safe - thank God. The next day, I leanred that at approximately the same time those feelings hit me, a friend of my younger son's had died in a motor vehicle accident.
Several times, I have suddenly been taken over by a feeling of panic, essentially a 'panic attack', and later learned it coincided with my mother being taken to the ER or hospitalized. Now, the first thing I do when I feel that way is call my mother.
Halfway through both of my pregnancies, I had dreams of giving birth and that each child was a boy...and they were.
Ever since I was very young, I can sense when the phone is about to ring, and frequently even can "guess" who the caller is. Often, while watching crime documentaries on TV, I can glean info that a later Internet search later verifies. It's even become a game between me and my younger son - he'll ask what I am picking up, then hop online to see if I'm right. Usually, I am. Recently, we were watching Paranormal State and they were featuring a case where a young boy had been killed on Halloween. The whole episode, I could swear I smelled cookies baking. I hadn't heard of the case prior to the episode, and discovered while researching it after the program ended that many news articles about this boy made mention of the boy's "favorite thing to do" - bake cakes with his mother.
Despite all of the above, I am still not quite ready to commit to calling myself psychic or empathic, but I can't ignore these occurances either. Honestly, I don't know what to believe. I would like to believe I have some abilities but some part of me still thinks I'm just being silly. But, if I really DO, I want with every fiber of my being to hone these skills and use them to bring peace and comfort both to the living and to any souls still trapped here. I've prayed on it, and continue to do so daily, asking God to allow me to do this and to help deliver those souls from a trapped existence and into the light that waits for them. If anyone has any wisdom or guidance to offer me in that endeavor, I welcome any and all!
