Lori,
Remember you are the one in control here, see it for what it is...fear. I too have prayed for you and sent all the angels I can, they are with you at all times. Raise your consciousness, it will stop hauting you when you stare it in the face and say "thank you for sharing but no thank you, I want no part of you anymore" You are loved here, just stay connected, we will get you through this, you are not alone, I know I for one am there with you in spirit, I feel your pain and I know what you're going through, I had similar experiences, scratched on the face, scracthes on the walls, it was drawn to be because I didn't allow the healing yet. u will get there, u will see the light, just keep focused and know you are walking through and you're scaring the hell out of it. Keep moving foward, you are so close to overcoming it, thats why it seems so strong but its not, its all manipulation, it preys on your fears. u must fight for your inner peace. You are stronger and it has no power over you, believe that! Love ya Hugggggssss!