When I did your tarot spread the other day, there was a very strong theme of facing darkness so you may move into the light. I saw an arrow of light, though reading your story later on you did literally see a beam of light. That beam of light is pointing you in the direction of your life's path. The number 4 came up many times. This tends to represent the four alchemic elements: earth, air, fire, water. Having all four represents a wholeness. The whole body, the whole earth, the whole of spirituality. I really do believe your path is leading you into a teaching or guiding role. But I do think you have some hang ups you must address before you can move forward. What these are, I'm not sure but if it means educating yourself, adjusting your beliefs and maybe shedding some that do not fit in with your new self anymore, then that is up to you to make that evaluation. Those changes and adjustments must be made your point of zero, which is yourself. No one can do this for you.