New to this site but not to the paranormal

Thank you Leslie, and yes, of course I will stay and give everyone a chance to get to know me.

I know I probably over reacted and I think there are outside contributing factors to why I did over react. I'm a very ultra sensitive person, in fact I am what is called an HSP which stands for Highly Sensitive Person. It's not a disorder or mental illness, it's a personality type that makes up 15 to 20% of the world's population.

Being an HSP has it's draw backs as well as it's gifts. Being highly sensitive to spirits, as well as other psychic abilities are some of the gifts. One of the major draw backs though is that I feel and experience things on a much deeper level than most people do.

It's not something I can help, believe me, if I could, I would. It has always bothered me that I was so deeply sensitive and emotional. I do not enjoy crying in front of other people, much less in public settings surrounded by complete strangers but I feel my emotions on such an intense level that when something either good or bad overwhelms me emotionally the tears come and there is nothing I can do to stop them no matter where I am at the time.

I have also been under a lot of stress and am already emotionally on edge because one of my dearest friends is about to lose her first born grandchild who was born 5 weeks premature with severe brain damage and is going to be taken off of life support this Tuesday. Anyone's heart would be breaking for a close friend's family in this situation, but for me multiply that heartbreak by 100 and you might get at least an idea how I experience it emotionally. As a result my normally high emotional sensitivity has been kicked into maximum overdrive and it's got the peddle to the metal.

As I said in a earlier post I have had a lot of paranormal experiences in my 48 years, many spirit related, some related to my own psychic gifts, and one very amazing UFO encounter of the 2nd kind which was the experience I had shared after they made a comment expressing what seemed like a desire of having a close encounter which prompted me to share my own experience which apparently was my mistake.

As I also said in another post, some of my experiences have been very fantastic. I've seen things and experienced things that most people DO only ever get to see in movies and I'll tell you what, not all of them were a wonderful, great and exciting adventures, some of them were absolutely terrifying beyond my ability to describe the fear I experienced in words. Many of these experiences I have largely kept to myself simply because I knew no one would believe me and I didn't want to be called a liar or labeled crazy. I didn't report my UFO experience to the police and I didn't talk about it to any of my friends for that very same reason. The movie "The Fourth Kind" very literally traumatized me until I found out that it's claim to be based on actual events was as much a hoax as Paranormal Activity and The Blair Witch Project because my experience was so intense that I began to fear the possibility that I had been a victim of alien abduction and had no conscious memory of it. That thought was something that was so beyond terrifying to me that I began violently shaking and sobbing during the movie, that's how deeply I was affected.

I really need to be able to talk about these experiences in a safe environment with people who won't imply or outright tell me that I'm either lying or crazy. I sincerely hope that I will find this forum to be that safe environment where I can open up about the experiences I've had without fear of persecution.

Now I say we put this subject to rest and move on. The way I see it now that I've had time to calm down is that this other member's comment was both tactless and insensitive to my feelings and I over reacted to it. I let my emotions get the better of me and judged the entire community based on the actions of just one person and for this I am sorry and hope you all can forgive me because the rest of you do all seem like a lovely group of people.

Can I get a group hug here?

Evening everyone,

Got online tonight later than I had planned and while I was seeing partials via my phone, could not respond until I actually sat down to the "machine".

As in life, career or elsewhere our paths take us, what we all need to remember is that the "world of the internet" is via typing, etc. And as CC said, this is a world-wide site; all different walks of life in all.
The point is to please step back and breathe for a moment. Remember, we're talking, chatting, posting in forums via a keyboard. We're not gathered around having tea or coffee or beverage of choice together where people can see body language or hear how something is said. Also, there will be times someone might be having an off day - regardless of whether they are a sensitive, empath, investigator or someone who is wanting to learn more or understand something they've experienced.

This is one site where being a "nutter" isn't and shouldn't be a worry. If you are here reading this, chances are that you have experienced at least one thing that has not been earthly explainable. Welcome to the paranormal. Be it something scary, outlandish sounding, text book descriptive or something questioned in theory; there is a good chance that if someone here is not able to help, the potential of the person who can help joining is not in the distant future.

With that said, I'm sending you all my "typed" hugs as well as spiritual hugs and hoping that like with all other aspects of our lives when we're not logged in here, that there will be the occasional bump or bend in the road but the road continues and we all become better for it.

I'm sorry that you have experienced a spot that was not so inviting or welcoming and I certainly hope you take the time for myself and others to get to know you all and help you find that this is a home away from home that does give understanding to the words - strange, weird, scary, unsettling, etc.

Peace and Love,

Leslie

Thank you Eclecticdealer for the kind words and the huge cyber hug. Hugs are always welcome and I love giving them back so here's a huge cyber hug right back at ya. *HUGS*


Hi Norman Glasser, I'd never really thought of comments like that before but I do see your point.

comments is like art you put it out there to the public you get what you get but most important they thought of your comment like or dislike not really important don't take it personnel this is a challenge for new growth for you take the neg. and turn into pos.

@Tresses I'm beginning to calm back down now, it was just really disheartening that I had only been a member for 15 hours and the very first person I talked to in chat here was as you so eloquently put it, less-than-tactful. I'm sure you're familiar with the effect bad first impressions can have.

My first, initial reaction was to consider deleting my membership and leaving but instead I decided to vent my frustration here and proceed with a "wait and see" attitude rather than judging everyone here based on this single incident.

So far everyone that has responded has been kind so I'm hanging on to my "wait and see" attitude and will stick around for a while and see how it goes.

crystalcross and Tresses: Loved your "chock-full-O-nuts" and "Planters" comments, I lol'd. Thanks, I needed that.

the people here are really nice and kind but there is always one spoiler, they mean nothing and just ignore them. I also had a cold shoulder on chat and after the second question I asked and was ignored I just left.
Mean people suck
Sending you a huge cyber hug !!!!!!!!

Hmm, I would say don't be quick to judge everyone hear based on one less-than-tactful comment. If this were really a place we weren't free to open our mouths and our minds then I wouldn't be here either. We've got enough "nuts" here to put Planters out of business.

Hey I'll admit that my experience does sound pretty fantastic and if I hadn't been the one to have experienced it myself and was listening to someone who was a stranger to me tell it, I would probably wonder to myself if they were telling the truth or not too so on that point I don't blame her. But I would at least give them the benefit of the doubt and not tell them or even imply that their story was cliche or sounded like something straight out of a movie because that would be unkind.

She was also sharing things about herself that may or may not be true because I don't know her any better than she knows me but I didn't imply that she was making it up. All I expected was that same respect and consideration in return. But as Spookycute pointed out, this is indeed the internet and there are always going to be people like that.

Thank you for the welcome Spookycute.

Sorry to hear you had a bad experience but it is the Internet lol there will be people like that at times.. At any rate, welcome

@crystalcross Not sure I'd feel any more comfortable or accepted in the sensitives corner right now either since the member that I had this issue with claimed to be a sensitive.

I know you're right and I may try sharing again in the future but at the moment I'm feeling somewhat wounded and disheartened so for now I'm just going to remain quiet and keep my personal experiences to myself because as Jana said, at the end of the day -I KNOW- that my experiences were real.

A huge thank you to everyone who replied with kindness.